I have some unfinished business. Business that I need to take care of, sooner rather than later. See, I had big hopes for myself this year. I had goals and times that I wanted to meet and worked hard for months on end. When Long Beach came, I knew it wasn't my time to shine. I knew it wasn't my day. And being the smart runner that I am, I set my sights on something new. Maybe I had this in the back of my mind the whole time - maybe not. Maybe I set myself up to fail before I even gave myself a chance. Who knows? What I did realize though, is that I still want to achieve my goal of hitting a low 3:30 in the marathon before the year is up.
The night before Long Beach, when I decided not to run the full, I had made up my mind. I formed my plan and took the steps to put it into action. I couldn't wait to finish that race, drive home and hit register on something new. I knew all along which race was calling my name. I haven't talked about it here yet because I was still forming my own thoughts and ideas of how this next race will play out. I don't want any added pressure put on myself and with that I have spent the last couple of weeks working on my head. See, I know I built it up way too far in advance for myself (I just don't do well with LONG training plans). I talked the talk, but when it came down to it, I couldn't walk the walk because I scared myself shitless. This time, I wanted to be sure, I wanted it to be the right decision, and I'm finally excited to see what I have in me.
So, when I got home from Long Beach, and had a nice long chat with the hubbs, I decided to register for C.I.M. - the California International Marathon on December 5th. Yes, that is the race where I chickened out at the start last year because it was so dang cold! But not only was it frigid out, I was also burnt out. I had just raced 3 marathons and a couple of halves in the mater of just 8 weeks before that. I was done racing. This year though, come frigid temps or pounding rain...I will be at that start line to take home my own marathon victory.
I thought about not sharing this on here. I thought about posting about it maybe the Friday before? But that is not me, that is not what my blog is about. Honesty is the best policy, and I know you are all super supportive. I've re-worked a training plan for the next 6 weeks and am doing some tweaking in my diet and my cross training. I want to give myself everything I have before I toe the line so that there will be no excuses. Also, the hubbs will be at the finish line; above all, no matter what happens that day, that is most important to me.
I also want to announce...I didn't even attempt to register for Boston on October 18th. Nope, didn't eve open the BAA website. I had also made that decision that weekend. It was hard not to, and for a bit I was sad. But when it closed the very same day, I knew I had made the right decision for me. I will be sad I won't get to meet many of you come April, but I have other plans to work on next year. Bigger things that I want to do. Boston is awesome, I will get my redemption race in 2012. I do plan on running NY marathon if I get in (any help on this is greatly appreciated!), or maybe even possibly going the charity route to ensure I get in. That will be my big destination race next year - and I'm excited!
So, I've spilled the beans, let the cat out of the bag, told you all where I'm at and where I'm going. Phew, I feel better! My head finally feels like it is screwed on tight and I can put one foot in front of the other as I count down the days until December 5th! Thanks again for all your support!
Have a great Tuesday!
Happy Running peeps!