Monday, August 2, 2010

OUCH!

How did it get to be Monday already!?  And August for that matter?  Sheesh!  I guess time flies when you're having fun! :)

As predicted, my weekend was spent running and relaxing - my favorite.  Friday when I got off work, I headed out for a quick run - or so I thought.  I have been trying to make myself get to the gym lately to keep up with my core workouts and weights, both of which have been severely neglected in the month of July.  My gym is exactly 3 miles away from my house, so I decided to run there, do a few weights and then head home.  Right away though, in those first few steps my knees, both of the them!, were aching and had some pain.  I figured it would take a mile or so for them to warm up and then feel better so I kept plugging along.  Well, not so much.  Those three miles were awful, I was straight into the wind, it was HOT out and all I wanted to do was quit.  So I started bargaining with myself.  I decided that I would make it to the gym, do a couple of miles on the dreadmill then call my mom for a ride home. 

After a couple of miles on the dreadmill and a few hundred crunches I went to call my mom and no answer!  WTF?  She's always home!  I called her cell - no answer.  Called my sis - no answer.  And Ari was still stuck at work.  So, I sucked it up and had to run home.  The worst three miles of my life.  Thankfully the wind was at my back and I did manage to negative split! but really, I think that was due to the fact that I just wanted to get home!  By the time I got home I.was.done.  I actually tweeted that it was easily one of the worst runs I have ever had, easily in the top 5 worst, and continued to ask myself why the hell I do this!
8 miles - 1:05:30 - 8:11/mi pace

Saturday I wanted to run about 6 miles to meet my monthly goal of 170 but I knew that with my long run on Sunday that was probably not a good idea.  I forced myself to take a rest day in hopes that the day off would help me for the 16-18 I had on the books for the next day.  I was bummed I missed my monthly goal but was more worried about finishing on Sunday.

Sunday I woke up late!  Argh!  I wanted to get out early but I slept through my alarm!  I guess I was tired :(  By the time I got my butt out the door to tackle my long run, it was 10 am and I had no sherpa to go with me.  I had no real plan in my head of where to run but I was shooting for 18 and just headed out the door.  I went towards Almaden and hit up  a trail.  It was hot!  Why did I wait so long!  And...my knees were killing me.  Many times I thought of scraping the run, just turning around and heading home.  But for some reason, my crazy running brain kept putting one foot in front of the other.  The route I picked was also hilly...what was I thinking?  I passed a ton of peeps out walking and enjoying the sun and all I could think of was that I wish I was at home!  When I reached mile 8 I decided to turn around, no need to beat myself up more for a couple extra miles.  I had wanted to experiment with PB&J sammy's for my long run too, but with no sherpa with me, I had no idea of how to carry them.  My iFitness belt already had my phone and there was really no other place.  So I went with Sport Beans instead of Gu.  I did have to make a pit stop in the bushes at my turn around but other than that, my stomach tolerated the sport beans and thankfully I didn't have to deal with stomach issues on top of my screaming knees!

The whole way home I was envisioning me just sitting on the couch relaxing - it was my motivation to get home!  Those last couple of miles were just dreadful and I was doubting myself like crazy.  I honestly yesterday doubted I could ever run a marathon again, let alone BQ again.  I really wanted to run it at goal pace to see how my training is doing, but alas I finished with an overall pace of 8:22/mi - two seconds over what I would need for a BQ. 
16 miles  - 2:13:51 - 8:22/mi pace
Yes, it was a hilly route.  Yes, it was HOT.  Yes, I probably didn't fuel right.  Yes, it's probably not smart to try and run all your long run miles at goal pace.  And, yes, my knees are in bad shape.  But I'm sure we can all relate when a run goes bad, so does our thoughts.

I don't feel too terrible for not hitting the 18, or even hitting my goal of 170 for the month.  There will be more runs and months to hit my goals.  What I do worry about is my race in October, but I'm sure that is just more left over worries from how terrible the run went.  I do know, I have to figure out my knees.  I have a feeling it's my tight quads pulling on them, so I need to roll out more, stretch more and give myself an extra day of rest this week - all doable.
The aftermath of my run - double ice packs!

I'm signed up for a trail 10K race this weekend that has me excited, and I WILL tackle my long run on Saturday before the sun comes up.  I have learned my lesson, I have the sun burn to prove it!  And even with the rough start of July for me, I finished up with 163.4 miles for the month - not too shabby.  I went back and looked at what I have done for the year and I'm totally on pace to hit 1500 miles, maybe even more!  That made me happy :)

Just realized I rambled on and on about how terrible my runs were.  I hate that.  I run because it really does make me feel good.  I run because I love to eat.  I run because it makes me a better "me."  I'm so grateful that I have the legs and heart to do it, others aren't so fortunate and I need to suck it up and see the blessing that it is.  There are far too many other things in my life and this world to get worked up about - my running shouldn't be one.  Sometimes though, it just feels good to get it out.  But being able to move on is an art form in itself.

Sounds like you all had a great weekend of racing and running!  Especially TMB, Katie and Tara!  Way to rock it girlies!  I'm off to read all about them :)

Happy Monday and Happy Running peeps :)

19 comments:

Jamoosh said...

Dang - if you can't count on family...

Katie said...

BE CAREFUL WITH YOUR KNEES! says momma Katie. egads! stretch those buggy quads out and rest!!!!

Morgan said...

I hear ya on crappy runs lately, well for me lack of runs have been my issue more than bad ones. I hope your next run makes up for this weekend and good luck on the trail race!!! I was thinking about you & Ari this weekend while I sherpa'd for Spike. :) It'll get better and you WILL BQ cuz we have to run together remember???

Tara said...

Hey girlie! First off, congrats on your SF half marathon (even though you were 6 secs off; you still rocked it!)

I did 16 miles yesterday and it was a shit crap run. I have absolutely no motivation to run these days; I just get it done. So bad. Hang in there with those knees! I hope they cooperate for ya.

Trail race will be super cool! Wish you were coming out here to race.

Sarah said...

Hope your next run is better! :) You can't let a bad run get you down. You are a running rockstar in my mind!

Tricia said...

awesome job pushing through

Jill said...

Errr, those knees are worrying me. Can you get into a physical therapist to get some advice? I know when I had some knee problems, they did a strength test and I was just weak in the ole VMO muscle and worked my quad muscles to death and it was the magic cure. Not sure that's your case but it's always worth a PT visit. Massage therapy is heaven devine, too, if you can swing one of those. I thought about you this weekend and wondered how your long run was going. Miss you tons (and I finally got up my SF RR, with you honorably mentioned :) )... send me pics from the weekend if you get a chance.
((HUGS))

Denise said...

if i had paces like that on my bad runs i'd be happy!! i hope the knees are ok...you might need some rest!

Christina said...

Please take care of those knees. You'll need them to run really really fast. :)

J said...

Hope your knees feel better! be careful! great job on the long run in the heat!

ajh said...

Impressive running all those miles at goal pace.

Jo Lynn said...

What race are you doing this weekend? Is it on the 7th???
I'm free the 14th if you think you want to work on a trail run. ;)

Mel -Tall Mom on the Run said...

I am in a RUT, I did not run once last week.. CRAZY right! Love the double ice packs. Hugs!

Teamarcia said...

Ooooh take care of those knees! As if you didn't know I've been running shittily for the entire month of July so I feel ya. Here's to a fresh start!

onelittletrigirl said...

I am joining the masses: take care of those knees!!!!!

Double ice packs= my life!

Marlene said...

Bummer on the crappy run and knee pain! Hope you can get that sorted out this week. You still rocked out some awesome miles!

Jess said...

The heat of summer wears on a runner and can certainly lead to self doubt. But I'm sure you'll be well-prepared for your Oct race!

shellyrm aka jogging stroller mama said...

Take care of your knees! You are too speedy to be sidelined.

Any run is a good one even the crappy (heehee, that's funny after my last post) ones.

Tara said...

nice job on getting your runs in despite not feeling it! Take care of thsoe knees girl! You're going to do great at LB and don't stress about a few crappy runs!